Ok this is totally CRAZY ! I have been working on a blog post since yesterday and I just deleted it. Ok now thats not the crazy part I actually do that alot . The crazy part is that I deleted it for a different reason than normal. I usually spill my entire heart out on the blog site and then before my nerve gets up to hit post I delete it . Only a few times have I actually gone through with the ever so dreaded post button. Why do I do this you ask? one word, FEAR !!! I am afraid of what people think about me ,about what I write and I am afraid that people will think I am down right CRAZY ! Nothing but FEAR ! You know I think as women we are all our own worst critic about everything we do. Especially the way we dress, what size we are ,how we raise our children, even how we shop and clean . The basics of everything we do we are always questioning ourselves and let me just say I am the worst. I am always so afraid of giving someone the wrong impression of me that I usually end up doing that anyway because I am too afraid of just being who God created me to be.I may have blogged on this before ,me trying to show everyone that I have it together but inside I am falling apart . Well guess what I learned today and I think I knew it all along I was just afraid to face my fears about it. Without completely copying one of my devotions from this morning let me tell you a little about what I am talking about. This devotion could have easily had my name on it . In fact,as I was reading I kept thinking man this girl really knows me she is talking directly to me ! No, I know she wasn't but God was . You see he knows our deepest issues and fears even when we are not strong enough to face them ourselves. He knows when we need to hear or see something that directly targets our inner most hidden fears. Ok so heres an example I am addicted to buying workout videos off those tv commercials that tell me I am going to be in the best shape of my life in just 30 days . YES!!!!!! I love to hear that but heres the kicker. When you buy those things you know in order to be in the best shape of your life first of all you actually have to do the entire workout like everyday ! and that doesn't include sitting on the couch and jumping up on the easy parts(GUILTY I AM) and second of all in reality how many of us even if we did do it everyday are actually going to be in the best shape ever in only 30 days. I mean don't get me wrong exercise is awesome I have been doing it 6 days a week for 3 months now , but I am far from being in the best shape of my life. You see Satan uses fear the same way ! "Satan specializes in false advertising" "He's ultimate at making fears look real even when they are not." Its totally ok to have some fears , they protect us, like being afraid of crossing a busy street,being afraid of falling off a cliff if your standing too close. those are justifiable fears . This is my favorite quote from my devotion listen carefully " SATAN"S FALSE ADVERTISEMENT CAN CHOKE OUR FAITH AND FUEL OUR FEARS." How often have we let that happen. I can't even begin to count.An easy example for me would be every time I hit the delete key on a blog when I am expressing my growth in my relationship with Jesus. I can almost hear Satan's evil laugh every time I touch that delete key. And how often have you wanted to go up to a stranger that you can tell is hurting but you don't because your afraid of what they might say to you or afraid of having your feelings hurt or even just afraid that they might actually need something from you that you don't have time or are not willing to give.These are all ways that Satan uses FEAR to keep us from doing God's work . Now I dont want you to start feeling guilt or anxiety because you start thinking about times he has used fear against you ,believe me I did . My head was flooded with memories and mostly all bad ones, but heres the thing this started in the Garden of Eden. Satan is a master at this because hes been doing it since the beginning . FEAR started with Adam and Eve as soon as Satan twisted God's words around to get Eve to eat the forbidden fruit and then she gave it to Adam they began to experience fear and their lives changed .Satan convinced Adam and Eve that they didn't really need God they would be self-suffcient in every way . Ok here's the question how many times have we believed Satan on that aspect. How many times have we thought we could handle our own situations ? Again I can't even count them all !Here is the really cool reality of it all God never meant for us to be in control! We are his children ! He wants us to look to him for guidance and understanding and when we're afraid what more comforting place to be than in his presence ,in his arms . Relying on his guidance and his comfort. The truth is Satan wants us to fail he wants us to be afraid . The crazy thing is I could never blog on my own anyway ! The ideas and thoughts that I get I can't just think those up ! They must come from Jesus ! So heres my challenge to my self and anyone who may read this blog ! The next time you experience an overwhelming fear about something . Stop what your doing and pray for God just to hold you and protect you . Don't give Satan the satisfaction of watching you fail at something that could ultimitaly bring Glory to God . Don't let him rule your feelings about yourself or others. If you feel like your CRAZY its ok I feel that way alot ! everyday actually! Ha Ha ! Heres one of my new favorite verses:
~ "For God did not give us a spirit of timidity,but a spirit of power,of love,and self-disipline." 2 Timothy 1:7 ~
Ok so I am about to conquer Satan and face one of my greatest fears and hit the post button ! just remember God doesn't expect us to be perfect in everything we do . We're not suppose to be ! He loves us for just who we are ! I hope you all have an AWESOME week :)
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