Do you ever wonder why you are placed in certain situations? Well that was dumb of course you do . Ha! Women spend 90% of our time wondering about that kind of stuff! We ask ourselves... Why me? What did I do to deserve this? What was I thinking? Well I could go on and on ,but I think you get the idea.And its so funny it could be for good or bad reasons. For instance when nothing is going our way we're like why me? why can't I get a break? but then when everything seems to be going right we're like wow what did I do to deserve this? this shouldn't be happening to me. Ha! we're never satisfied are we?
I have tried over the past few months to have a different view about questioning why things happen when and why they do.While preparing to speak to women at a recent event, I started to write down situations that I had been through in my lifetime that stood out in my mind, and as I started to write I began to realize how they all began to connect kind of like playing dot to dot. I have to be honest it kind of weirded me out at first but then I was like wow God placed me in certain situations throughout my lifetime. I think sometimes we forget that God already knows what when how where and why long before we do. He knows where he wants us to end up and why . He already has a plan for us. I didn't understand that for the longest time and to be honest I really still don't know exactly what that plan is, but what I have learned is that being obedient is very important in my walk with Jesus.If your like I was not long ago, your probably saying "OK Heidi how the heck do I do that? How do I know if I'm being obedient or not?" Trust me I have ask those same questions A LOT and here's what I have learned. For me it started with forgetting what I thought was the "correct" way to pray and I started talking to God whenever I needed to and believe me I need to alot. I also started to read my bible and you know what? This was hard. I didn't understand one word of it I didn't know where to start. I would hear people tell how they would open their bible and be right on the page they were suppose to be on so I tried that . Didn't work! Ha ! I would even close it ,close my eyes real tight pray please show me what to read and open it back real quick as if to see a special verse jump off the page at me! That didn't work either! So I subscribed to a daily devotion by Proverbs 31 ministries and that at first only made me more confused because their bible verses didn't match mine and I had always been taught to only use the King James Bible, so that for me only made connecting with Jesus even more difficult. But I continued to read those devotions and I eventually made the trip to Lifeway and ask the sales clerk to help me. I explained my situation to her and then I braced myself and waited on her to call me stupid and tell me to stick to my own bible and eventually I would figure it all out,but she didn't ! She smiled at me and said I will be happy to help you she gave me a guide that showed me what the differences in certain versions were and helped me choose the right one for me.That made all the difference in the world! Reading my bible quickly became a very important part of my life! Obeying scripture was the next thing I began to do and probably the hardest thing I have ever done in my life! But I did it! Yes ladies I began to submit to my husband and No I wasn't happy about it (and I times I still have a major issue with this one.)But hard as it may be it was being obedient and it was an important step in developing not only my relationship with Jesus, but redeveloping my relationship with my husband as well.
It was in doing these things that I slowly started to feel at peace with a lot of situations that I would have before struggled with. I found myself asking the why me? questions a lot less and I am beginning to connect the dots and I am starting to understand that passions and dreams that I never knew about are starting to surface and old dreams that were all about me are starting to die.God is using me in ways I never even imagined. I know that I am a work in progress and I know that I have a long way to go yet. But I have something now that I never had before and it is a constant feeling that God is always with me and sometimes when I begin to ask why me Lord? I stop and rethink my question. The why me becomes" How can I use this situation to bring You Glory Lord " ? And that my friends is the right question, He will begin to equip you with resources and strength you never even knew possible. And its in that moment that you realize that it is so much more fulfilling to forget about the" why me's" and turn those words into "use me". I hope everyone has a very Happy Thanksgiving and hopefully we'll talk again soon!!
Here are a few verses that I refer to that may be helpful........
Ephesians 5:22-24 (NLT
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